Dear Baby 1

Hi sweet baby,

You are only a few cells big, just making your big trip down the Fallopian tubes. Today is 5 days past IUI so I think you could start implanting in the next couple of days. I know this new home might look scary but know that we're doing everything we can to make your home safe and comfortable. I've been told my lining is nice and thick for you so snuggle in precious baby. Oh and if you see a brother or sister on the way, grab ahold and bring them along- we'd love it! But don't worry I totally understand if you don't want to share your birthday and all the first baby glory!

I love you so much already. You're pretty much all I think about. I have to make a real effort to think about something else! I love you so much it hurts and I am so ready to hold you and meet you. I'm really praying this is the month that you start growing inside of me. I know kids don't always do things on the timeline their parents want so if you're not ready yet, I won't give up on you. But please be ready because I'm already so in love with you and as crazy as it might sound, I miss you so much. I missed you yesterday on Mother's Day- I wished I could reach down to my belly and know you were already on your way.

You are going to have a life filled with so much love. In some ways, I'm trying to enjoy all the things in life that I know will be different when you are here. Like keeping the house messy or going out to eat on a whim or sleeping in on weekends. But know I'd trade it all in a heartbeat and never look back when you're ready to come live in me.

Your daddy loves you so much too. He's so ready to love on you. You should see how much he loves Lucy, your fur sister. It's crazy how much you are going to have him wrapped around your little finger. He's going to be the best dad. He's so relaxed and never gets annoyed so you can cry and give it your best and he'll keep his cool. He's really trying to get a full time job so we can buy you lots of toys and clothes but if he doesn't, he'll get to stay home with you while I go back to work and I'll be crazy jealous. but you two will have the best time. You are so lucky. There are lots of babies concieved whose daddies don't want them and you have a daddy who is counting down the days until we get to see you.

Oh and then there is your Nana and Gramps. They are just made to be grandparents and they are going to spoil you rotten. You will adore them, they are the best. Nana will make sure you wear the cutest clothes and have the best of everything. And Gramps will teach you to play cards and golf, but he won't let you win so be prepared for that. He's been the best dad in the world and you are so lucky that he will be your grandpa. Plus, he's building the most amazing house and every time I am there, I can hear your little pitter patters running down the halls. You have two other wonderful grandparents who live far away but will love you and coo over you over Skype!

Oh sweet baby, please hang on for dear life. I know God has amazing plans for you and he's going to take care of you. So grow on and grab on and I can't wait to really get excited for you next week when I know this is real. And I can't wait to love you until the day I die.

I love you with all my heart, darling babe.
Love Mommy